why georgia

cause i wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdictless life. am i living it right? am i living it right? am i living it right? why, georgia why?

school has been zipping by. two weeks down, one more to go. we have a presentation for a group project on tuesday, wednesday school reps are gonna come and talk to us, and then thursday we get our completion letters. super stoked!! i'm definitely gonna miss my starbucks runs though. totally love hanging out there, drinking my frappuccino or hot chocolate (sometimes both), and watching the softball games that are played across the street while i wait for my dad to pick me up. sometimes we just sit and watch them together. after next week i get to start playing again, so i'm really excited for that!

saturday is all about scream zone with kristen and some other people. why the heck she invited me is beyond me. i'm the biggest pansy in the world and she knows this!! hello slight panic attacks, raspy voice from screaming, and having the shit scared out of me. god, i'm gonna hate this. all well. i can suck it up for a night with my best friend. nine years and counting, she's definitely gonna be the life-long friend. i friggen love her to death! =)


recently, i had a very interesting conversation with a very close friend. we were talking about our fears and my biggest one is growing up. yes, i know it sounds a little childish, but it's true. i am scared to death of growing up. i've known what i wanted to do in life since i was 13, i know where i want to settle down when i start a family one day, i know what i expect from myself, but i can't help but be scared for that all to happen. maybe not so much of becoming what i want to be, but more along the lines of settling down, starting a family, and getting into the routine of playing the role of the 9-5, middle aged, working woman with a family to take care of. i don't know, maybe i'm over-analyzing it, but i can't help it. it's not that i don't have faith in myself that i wont be good at that role, but gah, i don't know how to explain this. but while talking to this friend i realized that i need to stop thinking soo much into the future and just focus on right now, the present. i've always told people whatever happens happens. i believe everything happens for a reason and the more you focus on the future, the less time you spend appreciating the present. now, all i need to do is follow my own advice, and that's what i plan on doing.

off-topic thought: everyone should go listen to demi lovato's cd don't forget. LOVE IT!!!