the poet

i'm not looking for you to be anything but my ultimate enemy. so back off, you're not what i would prefer to see. when my body rots i still wont give you the courtesy. you came with fire for the last time. warrior poet once said, you're nor dead yet so live like you could be. warrior poet said, have no regrets when you're old. have no regrets when you're old.

i finished my ROP course for cosmetology yesterday thursday. our presentation went ok. ha, i kinda forgot to say some stuff but all well. all in all, i think we did pretty good. if i opened a salon, i'd hire us! haha now i just have to wait until november to put my name on the waiting list. hopefully i wont have to wait that long but we'll see. yyou can find a few more pictures HERE yes, i'm wearing a business suit and heels! haha


this past week i've been learning a lot about myself and my family while working with my dad and his friend. it's amazing how long you can know someone but still learn something new about them everyday. it might not come as a suprise to some people, but for those who don't know my dad was a drug addict and an alcoholic. it was 20 years ago when he decided that he needed to better himself and checked himself into rehab. i've heard countless stories about different things he's tried and how certain drugs make him feel. he doesn't hide anything he's experienced and that's why i respect him so much. he's open to answering any question i have about drugs or drug use. he's openly told stories to my friends who have asked him questions or if he just felt like they should be educated on the subject. i have never felt embarassed or ashamed because of my dad's past. i'll respect someone even more if they get the balls to ask someone who's a recovered drug addict or alcoholic a simple question to be more educated on that suject. a lot of people wonder why i don't drink or try pot or anything and to be completely honest with you, it is because of my dad. he is half of who i am. half of my blood line came from a drug addict and alcoholic. i have that 50% chance of drinking or trying a drug and getting addicted to that lifestyle. do i drink? sure on occasion but not at a party or anything. i drink when my dad hands me something and says, here try this. but what it comes down to is more of a personal choice not to get involved in the lifestyle of partying every weekend, whether it be getting high or drunk.

i know that's the one thing my dad would be disappointed in me in, and i can't bear to even think about how much that would hurt him, not to mention my mom. my parents are some of my best friends. just how you wouldn't want to do anything to disappoint your best friend, i don't want to do anything to disappoint mine. so now you all know a little bit more into my personal life and why i make some of the coices i do.

HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!! =)